I know I said that I would actually utilize this. And mentally, I blog to myself all of the time.. I know, not the same.
So as many of you know, my mom was diagnosed with cancer a few weeks ago, something in the form of breast, lung, stage four, all the like…..
BUT. Today we found out that it is only in ONE LUNG. No where else…no brain, breast, anything. I don’t think I have ever felt so happy and relieved in my entire life. As I sit here in our library, I reflect on all the things I have thought about in the past two and a half weeks. From the potential loss of her, the hopeful recovery, and everything in between. I went some pretty dark places, and although we are not off the hook yet, I feel so empowered to finally step up and help my mom and my dad get through this as a family.
Although I have tried to be strong on my own, I would have never survived these weeks without my friends and family, both electronically and here at school. It gives me chills to read the messages and prayers that have been sent to me, I literally can feel them running through me and giving me faith, hope, and love.
I feel like I can do anything today. Tears won’t leave my eyes but for once, I have been jerked to an immediate emotion that is positive. I wish I could fully express this more.